Bila Orang Pemalu Menulis di Blog

Siapa saya sebenarnya?
Manusia yang macamana?
Best ke?
Lawo ke?
Bijak ke?
Taklah..tiada satu pun kategori di atas ialah saya.
Dan kerana ketiadaan semua itu, maka saya jarang menulis di blog saya sendiri?
Kerana merasakan tiada identiti diri yang nak diwar-warkan kepada public.
Sebab tu jugak cam idup tak idup je blog ni.
Nothing much to tell la.
Nak cerita kisah sendiri..malu.
Nak cerita kisah orang..lagi jenis tak amik port.
Nak cerita kisah masak..tak nyempat.
Bis..nak cerita apa ek????
Hmmmmmm...lalalalalalaaaa

Should I Remove Them..Kesayangan...hmmm

Kengkonon dah dua minggu mencuba realisasi resolusi. Tapi ari-ari bukak blog kat Sudut Carik Idea Nak Makan. Huh..jangan nak carik idea sangat lah. Semua sangat menggiurkan okeh!!!

So tengah konpius ni should i remove all of my kesayangan?? For the sake of what?? Tapi sume menggoda dan berkata..marilah cube..marilah cubeeee..waaaaarrggghh

Kuatkan iman, tingkatkan prestasi, tahankan napas, turunkan BMI!!!!!!!!!!!

Berdebor Makin Kuat

Makin kuat berdebor ati ni. Hari ni dah Kamis. Tak berapa ari lagi few things would change back to how it used to be some time ago. Means kena berdikari banyak dan kerja kuat kena ada lebih lagi. Kemungkinan to be separated juga ada. Huk huk..belom-belom ibu dah sebak tau. But tu je pilihan yang ada buat masa ni sebab tak nak diowg yang susah gak kang. Dijangkakan storm and hurricane is about to arrive next week too. Oolalaaa.. Ni kalau next week tak dapat ni memang aku haruk satu jajahan melaka ni tau. Jangan main-main, cucu pendekar Abu nih!!
Semua shedule of life kena re-arrange (ceh..mcm byk naw shedulenye). Tadi dah terpikir, satu hape pon lom packing. Peerrgghhh..life is about to go upside down. Be prepared. Ingat malam kang nak kene start godek dah. Kotidak naya aku wat sensorang.
Takpe takpe..ni sume namanya pengorbanan sebelum nak dapat kehidupan bahagia like ever after (..lah sangat) Huhuuuu..kadang takleh tolerate gak bila pikir semua kejadian berlaku dalam masa yang sama. Tu yang dapat tempias minor migrain kenkadang tuh. Tuhan, tunjukkan ku jalan yang benar, hanya pada-Mu ku berserah. Moga semua berjalan lancar. Amin.
Kids, be strong honeysweet. Ibu janji tak lama.

What Option Do I Have??

The maids' permit is about to expire in a week.
We havent got replacement yet. (So selamba huh)
And now i'm having this pre-trauma of this incoming maid.
What if she runs away? What if she do bad things to my kids? What if she cant do housechores well? What if she's young? What if she's too demanding? What if she's not-so-hardworking-type-of-lady? What if..what if..???????
I dont want to keep the present one. Its like keeping a rebellious teenager at home. Always arguing and not listening to orders. One good thing bout her is that she never spank or yell to the kids or otherwise i'll ...i'll..i'll (speechless here..so many possibility could happen to her)
But above all..what option do i have??? Eeeeerrrgggghhhh...!!!!!!

Bibik

Tetiba teringin plak nak cerita pasal bibik ku yg seorang itu. Because i got a VERY mix feeling when it comes to her. Really mix up. I dont know why but she always makes me confuse bout myself. I can be very mad at her and then i pity her for me being mad. Then there are times when i pity her but then i think deep bout it, bling: pity's gone.
I know that i shouldnt get mad for nothing but i guess i cant help it. My blood can really go upstairs with just a simple reason. Example : She didnt put things the way it should be put. Minor. But i cant control myself by exploding it to her. Dont know why. I know she's improving herself and i can see that. I'm not that bad, cruel, merciless employer (or am I denying myself). I dont know. Nowadays i notice that i cant stay home with her being around. Makes me suffocate. Wow..am i really that desperate??? Is it her? Is it me?
In my own opinion, there are things that she done backdays that makes me feel the way that i feel now. I'm trying very hard to change myself. Be firm..yes but make it a friendly firm.
I dont want to put in public on what she did last time. X baek. Revealing her flaws definitely not my intention here. All i'm saying is me myself wants to be a much more better person towards her. Insyaallah. As Nabil would say: I torai!!! I must!! Promise yoa. Promise.